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Heya ! Isnt it weird when your digestive juices flow only when you're emotional ? i dun mean EMO LA ! i mean full of emotions.. like.. happy.. sad... grief.. anger... you get what i mean. or dont you... i sure hope its the former.. ok so.. been PMS-ing the past few days... shit sia... i hate this feeling... and making the people around me feel how i fel isnt the right thing to be.. sadly.. i'm doing it !! argh.. sorry kor for all the shit i brought up to you these past few days.. argh... sad.. sad.. NONO !! CANNOT !! must be happy.. !!!! DOH !!! thanx di... for al your care.. for everything.. :) thanx bridget.. :D and alan.. heee... though i'm sure you're not going to read this.. well.. thanx for your concern.. though i treat you like dirt.. haix.. if only.. haah.. my favourite lines.. "if only..." and "wouldnt it be nice..." whaha.. heehee... okok.. i'm happy now.. SEE ?!?! well.. right.. i'm like stoning now and refraining me from sleeping coz sleeping means sleeping through 7am means being late for work means.. well.. i sure dun wanna be late for work... well... band band band... just doodled up some logos the past few days.. some are crap.. whaha.. but some are quite nice.. heehee.. well.. i can say i'm no designer.. but well..i just draw for fun.. and it would be nice to see my hand drawn logo worn by the people i'm close with now wouldnt it ? haha... did one for SP band sax sect and well.. still working on.. well.. tentatively Goyang.. but i think i wanna change the name ah... "In The League of Extraordinary Musicians..." hmm.. how's thats sound ? kind of a rip off huh ? whahaha... ok.. well.. they arent giving any suggestions lor !! not my fault if it sounds corny or if its a rip off.. whaha... okok.. i'll think of sumthing.. i promise !! *hee* ok.. basically i need something else in my holiday life.. hmmm.. hmm.. anyone got anything better to intro ?! whaha.. righto.. shouldnt have opened my mouth... :X so... so !? so. erm.. ok.. crap.. ok.. so i guess i'm not in the running for solo this year afterall.. i cant find a song ! and with the competition.. dun think i can make it.. argh.. and i dun think i'll be writing anything for MD either.. my only playable piece is.. well.. argh... in my laptop ?? or was it in my PC... either which is down.. argh... ok... 3AM... chiong another 2 hours and its 5 !! then i can slowwwwwly get ready for work.. ahhahaa... YAY !!! well.. band later too... better not be late again.. heehee well... i gotta get through this stupid PMS feeling... YEAP !! and i think i shall face it !! now !! cant be feeling PMS-y all the time !!! I SHALL NOT PMS ! hahaaaa... funny sia.. ok... maybe its not.. bleah..!! alright..toodles ! Till We Meet Again Thank you.. for loving me... I Gotta Get Through This and I Will !!!
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
sad life i have... as usual.. work.. band.. work and MORE band.. argh... this is saddening... and i owe loads of ppl $$$ sadddddddddd... OH MAN... arghh... sucks when you're poor... and that ass... seriously !!! i dont know why do i even bother being friends with him.. EGO MANIAC !!! GO EAT SHIT !!! hope that ship of yours SINKS !! whahaha.. woot !!! i'm talking rubbish.. i am not that evil.. and i've gotten used to being used.. and being the one that's left out... being the one thats the 3rd party... being the extra one... OH WELL.. Till We Meet Again left alone... who will save me ?
oh well... things arent the way they used to be.. words only just dont cut it anymore... you know ? welll.. doubt that you even have the time to read this.. this is for you !!! haix.. guess its nothing... but i cant blame you anyway... you're trying your best... i've said a little of what i want to say.. and whats more, i'm not even half as important to your other stuff.. so yea.. i cant blame you... and i really dont.. all i need is a little more attention.. even the kid gains more attention than me already.. sorry.. but to tell you the truth, i AM an attention seeker.. and i admit it... haix... all i need... thats all i ever need to be on cloud 9... but its not easy... especially in this kind of situation... i'll stop thinking about it alr.. i should... and i will.. oh well... at least you DO give me some attention... but i require more.. well.. haix... nvm... i shan't be the demanding one.. i am not fit to be... i've been putting up a show for awhile now if you have noticed.. i can be happy and all in front of people but i am kinda hurting inside.. will someone be there for me ? i'm sure there will.. but it hasnt actually come yet.. so i'm still waiting.. but in the mean time.. i'm still hurting..and its killing me.. wonder why i still have no life even when its the holidays ? well.. go figure... oh well.. and yet i still cant blame you... and i am not going to... you have your prioities.. i cant be selfish... after all the things you did for me.. i'm deeply touched.. probably into it too much.. which worries me... maybe... just maybe... if only... if only.. if only. sad i am.. but bitter i shall not become... kinda learnt that from a past experience.. and it has come back to haunt me. should i trust it ? or should i stand my ground and let loose... i shall let time decide that for me... i shall not act on impulse... i've learnt my lesson.. it isnt easy to be this way aint it ? only i can answer that question.. but for now.. i shall try to live it to the fullest and breathe in all that i can... :) i shall not sulk... I shall SMILE !!! :) yes.. like that.. yea.. emo entry.. so ?! lack of cash has also taken a toll on me and my lifestyle..tons of resctrictions and loads of times i've been telling myself... oh god... oh well.. everyone needs money... why am i not in a charity ? and please mel.. dont screw up ur pay raise will you ?! i shall... see... the former is bugging me a whole lot more.. just need that little bit... it'll do me just fine.. Till We Meet Again and i shall not whimper in vain...
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This Is Me... Melvin Goh Shijin09.12.87
DigiMagic Communications
BA Mass Communications
Diploma In Infocomm Tech
SAF Bands - Parade Band B
Platoon 1, Section 4 ABRSM Grade 4 music practical(Piano)
ABRSM Grade 8 music practical (Saxophone)
ABRSM Grade 6 music theory
GCE 'O' Level Music Singapore Wind Symphony Member
Singapore Wind Symphony
Singapore Wind Symphony Youth Winds
Voices...
Outer Dimensions... |JoHan| |AliCe| |JoN| |ShaN| |ZaChiUs|
Hits...
Facets of My Life... Smile like you mean it. Take each day one step at a time. Positive. Well at least I hope to be. Music magician. Give me something and I'll make it go right. Great listener. Just give me that chace to listen. Very Fortunate and lucky to have the people around me. Really appreciate everyone and everything that came my way. Still learning, still growing. Not sideways i hope. Busy as a bee. And always doing it. Enjoy life to the fullest. You dont have very long to live it. And God Knows, You've got me sewn. And you still do. I was talking about myself. ha. Smile. And the world will smile with you. Pictures, still and moving alike. Laughs. And more to come. Friends. Can't Live without them. Art. Total Appreciation. Love.
Past Lived... 02/06/2005 - 02/13/200502/13/2005 - 02/20/2005 02/20/2005 - 02/27/2005 02/27/2005 - 03/06/2005 03/06/2005 - 03/13/2005 03/13/2005 - 03/20/2005 03/20/2005 - 03/27/2005 03/27/2005 - 04/03/2005 04/03/2005 - 04/10/2005 04/10/2005 - 04/17/2005 04/17/2005 - 04/24/2005 04/24/2005 - 05/01/2005 05/01/2005 - 05/08/2005 05/08/2005 - 05/15/2005 05/15/2005 - 05/22/2005 05/22/2005 - 05/29/2005 05/29/2005 - 06/05/2005 06/05/2005 - 06/12/2005 06/12/2005 - 06/19/2005 06/19/2005 - 06/26/2005 06/26/2005 - 07/03/2005 07/03/2005 - 07/10/2005 07/10/2005 - 07/17/2005 07/17/2005 - 07/24/2005 07/24/2005 - 07/31/2005 07/31/2005 - 08/07/2005 08/07/2005 - 08/14/2005 08/14/2005 - 08/21/2005 08/21/2005 - 08/28/2005 08/28/2005 - 09/04/2005 09/04/2005 - 09/11/2005 09/11/2005 - 09/18/2005 09/25/2005 - 10/02/2005 10/02/2005 - 10/09/2005 10/09/2005 - 10/16/2005 10/16/2005 - 10/23/2005 10/23/2005 - 10/30/2005 10/30/2005 - 11/06/2005 11/06/2005 - 11/13/2005 11/13/2005 - 11/20/2005 11/20/2005 - 11/27/2005 11/27/2005 - 12/04/2005 01/08/2006 - 01/15/2006 03/26/2006 - 04/02/2006 04/09/2006 - 04/16/2006 04/23/2006 - 04/30/2006 04/30/2006 - 05/07/2006 05/07/2006 - 05/14/2006 05/14/2006 - 05/21/2006 05/21/2006 - 05/28/2006 05/28/2006 - 06/04/2006 06/11/2006 - 06/18/2006 06/18/2006 - 06/25/2006 06/25/2006 - 07/02/2006 07/02/2006 - 07/09/2006 07/09/2006 - 07/16/2006 07/16/2006 - 07/23/2006 07/23/2006 - 07/30/2006 07/30/2006 - 08/06/2006 08/06/2006 - 08/13/2006 08/13/2006 - 08/20/2006 08/20/2006 - 08/27/2006 08/27/2006 - 09/03/2006 09/10/2006 - 09/17/2006 09/17/2006 - 09/24/2006 09/24/2006 - 10/01/2006 10/01/2006 - 10/08/2006 10/08/2006 - 10/15/2006 10/15/2006 - 10/22/2006 10/29/2006 - 11/05/2006 11/05/2006 - 11/12/2006 11/26/2006 - 12/03/2006 12/03/2006 - 12/10/2006 12/10/2006 - 12/17/2006 12/24/2006 - 12/31/2006 12/31/2006 - 01/07/2007 01/07/2007 - 01/14/2007 01/14/2007 - 01/21/2007 01/21/2007 - 01/28/2007 01/28/2007 - 02/04/2007 02/04/2007 - 02/11/2007 02/11/2007 - 02/18/2007 02/18/2007 - 02/25/2007 02/25/2007 - 03/04/2007 03/04/2007 - 03/11/2007 03/11/2007 - 03/18/2007 03/18/2007 - 03/25/2007 03/25/2007 - 04/01/2007 04/01/2007 - 04/08/2007 04/08/2007 - 04/15/2007 04/15/2007 - 04/22/2007 04/22/2007 - 04/29/2007 04/29/2007 - 05/06/2007 05/06/2007 - 05/13/2007 05/13/2007 - 05/20/2007 05/20/2007 - 05/27/2007 05/27/2007 - 06/03/2007 06/03/2007 - 06/10/2007 06/10/2007 - 06/17/2007 07/01/2007 - 07/08/2007 07/22/2007 - 07/29/2007 08/26/2007 - 09/02/2007 09/02/2007 - 09/09/2007 09/09/2007 - 09/16/2007 09/30/2007 - 10/07/2007 10/14/2007 - 10/21/2007 11/18/2007 - 11/25/2007 12/02/2007 - 12/09/2007 12/09/2007 - 12/16/2007 12/30/2007 - 01/06/2008 01/13/2008 - 01/20/2008 01/27/2008 - 02/03/2008 02/10/2008 - 02/17/2008 02/17/2008 - 02/24/2008 03/23/2008 - 03/30/2008 04/20/2008 - 04/27/2008 05/04/2008 - 05/11/2008 06/01/2008 - 06/08/2008 06/22/2008 - 06/29/2008 06/29/2008 - 07/06/2008 07/20/2008 - 07/27/2008 08/24/2008 - 08/31/2008 09/14/2008 - 09/21/2008 11/02/2008 - 11/09/2008 11/23/2008 - 11/30/2008 12/07/2008 - 12/14/2008 12/28/2008 - 01/04/2009 03/08/2009 - 03/15/2009 04/26/2009 - 05/03/2009 05/24/2009 - 05/31/2009 09/13/2009 - 09/20/2009 09/20/2009 - 09/27/2009 09/27/2009 - 10/04/2009 10/04/2009 - 10/11/2009 11/01/2009 - 11/08/2009 11/08/2009 - 11/15/2009 11/29/2009 - 12/06/2009 12/06/2009 - 12/13/2009 12/27/2009 - 01/03/2010 05/23/2010 - 05/30/2010 11/21/2010 - 11/28/2010 11/28/2010 - 12/05/2010 06/12/2011 - 06/19/2011 |