its been a crazy 1/2 year man. oh god. is that how long since i blogged ? maybe i should move to a more accessible site so i can do it while i do my usual checkings. maybe a change is good... i'll give that some thought...

SO...

lets start with the easiest (really?) part of my life so far... school...

so 4 modules have passed... ABCB... damn the C... currently doing 2 modules that im most looking forward to: Advertising and PR... the assignments are crazy but i think i might manage it all and even do good ! i just need some motivation man... i've been telling myself to focus but as of now, it looks like i cant. nevermind. come next monday, i'll have more focus. way to go MELVIN !

work. i left my current job. there actually wasnt anything wrong with it, since i gave a lasting impression of it while i was there. of course ups and downs are inevitable but i guess i got too affected by the downs... and i decided to leave. but still, it all ended well and hey... life goes on. nice people they are and i will remember every single one of them. :) thanks K2B ! :)

im going to start my new job come 2nd week of june. decided to give myself a week's break to do my assignments, study and basically.. A BREAK. maybe once im done with advertising, i should go out and take some pictures.. :) then again, i will melt and i really dont like the feeling of melting so... we'll see. hurhur.. chances are that i will not go and i will not even finish the assignment. ARGH. never mind. i MUST finish the assignment ASAP !

Band.

OMG please dont get me started.

Charity volunteering

sometimes, i dont even know why i bother. maybe i should join when im 35 so i can get a BTO on my own lor. HAHAAH... i really like working with kids who sometimes idolize you. :) its a nice feeling that they remember you. its nice. i wont be my identity

Friends... met some new ones who are really nice.. lost some old ones who i though were nice but basically not liking me at all.. in a way, i feel used. and seriously, im still feeling it. i have the "youre a plaything and i shall use you until you say something" face that just attracts people to do that to me. WHY ! stop it already la. im not a stuffed toy. im human. i have feelings too (sobs)

so yea. i guess true friends are hard to come by and i shall make do with normal friends for now. until now, ive not poured my heart out to ANYONE and it kinda frustrates me that i cant. if you can be that friend i yearn for for so long, please tell me. i cant read minds and i tend to get really ignorant so TELL ME already. i really need a friend. :(

love. argh. epic fail. what disappoints me the most is the person i like is being used by someone i dont like and the person i like is falling for the trap. CRAP. (oh the two words rhyme. how cute.) so seriously, no matter how "untrue" my friends are or if they have used me for whatever reason, they ARE my friends and i will not want ANYTHING BAD happen to them. and if its the matter of love and all, its even worse. DO NOT break my friends' heart(s) otherwise you'll be sorry. that is if i can do anything about it but if i can, you are in for a HELL load of bitching and a lot of "I TOLD YOU SOs !"

things that i should bitch about, i have. so i guess this blog has turned into a bitch blog. lets not let it go to waste shall we. read my entries. i need fans and maybe you can answer my cry of loneliness. Please? Life's not fair. spare some compassion !

I am Nice ~ :(