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hmmm... i think i think too much... no ? i dont know... its just that basically i took someone's words too literally... and i got the wrong idea... well... the body language as well...but basically, after a while, that someone decided to choose someone else but i was still thinking it in another way.... looking through the past conversations, one can really infer that it would be attraction... but then again, somethings do change last minute.. and i know for a fact that THAT happens ! i guess im just not good enough... and a simple "you're too young !" does the trick... oh well... i guess... but i just want to remain as friends... thats all... hopefully what i did the past few days doesnt deprive me of that... friendship... easy ? much easier than attraction and love.... thats for sure... - sometimes you just got to let go.... - thats for sure... sometimes you just got to let that feeling go... and settle for second best... i sure hope this feeling of being wasted goes off soon... important things await me and i've got to concentrate... i guess i'll have the "channel" my thoughts somewhere else... something which i always do i guess... channeling... hopefully... hoping.... argh...this feeling is definately NOT good ! Till We Meet Again Lost... Lost Lost Lost...
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
-all i want is to be noticed...- I must admit, im attracted to niceness... I'm a sucker for nice gestures... Im also a sucker for flattery... it just sucks knowing that niceness is purely just being NICE... and nothing more than that... -ever had that feeling of having something right in front of you but you cant have it?- is it appropriate to tell the person what you really feel ? i took the chance anyway.. dont know the outcome yet... and expecting the worst... or maybe some pity comfort words... (yes.. nice again. nothing more.. absolutely no meaning...) ... or maybe something good out of it... seriously... its a whole territory i dont want to explore just yet... let the place just some to me... -I know thats life...- and again, music comes to its rescue... ever wondered why i like music so much.... it can seriously help me feel better... well, try this... when you're feeling down and no one is there to listen to you, or you would rather keep it to yourself, put your mp3 player (or computer, which ever you're accessible to) to random and just let it skip tracks... you will see the songs link up in certain ways... its like, the brainless object actually knows how you feel.. and its just... well... weird... -life's like a bunch of dots... and they will all come together... and its beautiful.. and good...- ive been keeping positive for far too long.. ive been waiting for a real long time too... just when someone worthy comes by, its not for keeps... thats just life huh ? you cant have everything you want... not even if its just 1 thing... -would you run away with me?- would anyone ? -i prefer note books with lines...- writing has also been my medicine from depression... i guess when you pen down your feelings, it makes you feel better... or sometimes worse... but in another aspect, your works are generally good when you write during that period of time... thats because you're emotional and so the things you write will be with loads of emotions... -i want to do alot of things... but...- being depressed also makes you think about your like alot... it makes you think of the bigger picture rather than just what you're facing now... i've been wanting to do alot of things... designing, being in an arts school, DJ-ing, teaching... just alot of things run through your mine... well.. my mind rather...i feel that im rather useless and its like... you want to make yourself a better person to get people's attention... and just that... -its just that time...- i guess... im thinking too much... maybe... but i want to think now... i guess... Till We Meet Again I want to love you now...
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This Is Me... Melvin Goh Shijin09.12.87
DigiMagic Communications
BA Mass Communications
Diploma In Infocomm Tech
SAF Bands - Parade Band B
Platoon 1, Section 4 ABRSM Grade 4 music practical(Piano)
ABRSM Grade 8 music practical (Saxophone)
ABRSM Grade 6 music theory
GCE 'O' Level Music Singapore Wind Symphony Member
Singapore Wind Symphony
Singapore Wind Symphony Youth Winds
Voices...
Outer Dimensions... |JoHan| |AliCe| |JoN| |ShaN| |ZaChiUs|
Hits...
Facets of My Life... Smile like you mean it. Take each day one step at a time. Positive. Well at least I hope to be. Music magician. Give me something and I'll make it go right. Great listener. Just give me that chace to listen. Very Fortunate and lucky to have the people around me. Really appreciate everyone and everything that came my way. Still learning, still growing. Not sideways i hope. Busy as a bee. And always doing it. Enjoy life to the fullest. You dont have very long to live it. And God Knows, You've got me sewn. And you still do. I was talking about myself. ha. Smile. And the world will smile with you. Pictures, still and moving alike. Laughs. And more to come. Friends. Can't Live without them. Art. Total Appreciation. Love.
Past Lived... 02/06/2005 - 02/13/200502/13/2005 - 02/20/2005 02/20/2005 - 02/27/2005 02/27/2005 - 03/06/2005 03/06/2005 - 03/13/2005 03/13/2005 - 03/20/2005 03/20/2005 - 03/27/2005 03/27/2005 - 04/03/2005 04/03/2005 - 04/10/2005 04/10/2005 - 04/17/2005 04/17/2005 - 04/24/2005 04/24/2005 - 05/01/2005 05/01/2005 - 05/08/2005 05/08/2005 - 05/15/2005 05/15/2005 - 05/22/2005 05/22/2005 - 05/29/2005 05/29/2005 - 06/05/2005 06/05/2005 - 06/12/2005 06/12/2005 - 06/19/2005 06/19/2005 - 06/26/2005 06/26/2005 - 07/03/2005 07/03/2005 - 07/10/2005 07/10/2005 - 07/17/2005 07/17/2005 - 07/24/2005 07/24/2005 - 07/31/2005 07/31/2005 - 08/07/2005 08/07/2005 - 08/14/2005 08/14/2005 - 08/21/2005 08/21/2005 - 08/28/2005 08/28/2005 - 09/04/2005 09/04/2005 - 09/11/2005 09/11/2005 - 09/18/2005 09/25/2005 - 10/02/2005 10/02/2005 - 10/09/2005 10/09/2005 - 10/16/2005 10/16/2005 - 10/23/2005 10/23/2005 - 10/30/2005 10/30/2005 - 11/06/2005 11/06/2005 - 11/13/2005 11/13/2005 - 11/20/2005 11/20/2005 - 11/27/2005 11/27/2005 - 12/04/2005 01/08/2006 - 01/15/2006 03/26/2006 - 04/02/2006 04/09/2006 - 04/16/2006 04/23/2006 - 04/30/2006 04/30/2006 - 05/07/2006 05/07/2006 - 05/14/2006 05/14/2006 - 05/21/2006 05/21/2006 - 05/28/2006 05/28/2006 - 06/04/2006 06/11/2006 - 06/18/2006 06/18/2006 - 06/25/2006 06/25/2006 - 07/02/2006 07/02/2006 - 07/09/2006 07/09/2006 - 07/16/2006 07/16/2006 - 07/23/2006 07/23/2006 - 07/30/2006 07/30/2006 - 08/06/2006 08/06/2006 - 08/13/2006 08/13/2006 - 08/20/2006 08/20/2006 - 08/27/2006 08/27/2006 - 09/03/2006 09/10/2006 - 09/17/2006 09/17/2006 - 09/24/2006 09/24/2006 - 10/01/2006 10/01/2006 - 10/08/2006 10/08/2006 - 10/15/2006 10/15/2006 - 10/22/2006 10/29/2006 - 11/05/2006 11/05/2006 - 11/12/2006 11/26/2006 - 12/03/2006 12/03/2006 - 12/10/2006 12/10/2006 - 12/17/2006 12/24/2006 - 12/31/2006 12/31/2006 - 01/07/2007 01/07/2007 - 01/14/2007 01/14/2007 - 01/21/2007 01/21/2007 - 01/28/2007 01/28/2007 - 02/04/2007 02/04/2007 - 02/11/2007 02/11/2007 - 02/18/2007 02/18/2007 - 02/25/2007 02/25/2007 - 03/04/2007 03/04/2007 - 03/11/2007 03/11/2007 - 03/18/2007 03/18/2007 - 03/25/2007 03/25/2007 - 04/01/2007 04/01/2007 - 04/08/2007 04/08/2007 - 04/15/2007 04/15/2007 - 04/22/2007 04/22/2007 - 04/29/2007 04/29/2007 - 05/06/2007 05/06/2007 - 05/13/2007 05/13/2007 - 05/20/2007 05/20/2007 - 05/27/2007 05/27/2007 - 06/03/2007 06/03/2007 - 06/10/2007 06/10/2007 - 06/17/2007 07/01/2007 - 07/08/2007 07/22/2007 - 07/29/2007 08/26/2007 - 09/02/2007 09/02/2007 - 09/09/2007 09/09/2007 - 09/16/2007 09/30/2007 - 10/07/2007 10/14/2007 - 10/21/2007 11/18/2007 - 11/25/2007 12/02/2007 - 12/09/2007 12/09/2007 - 12/16/2007 12/30/2007 - 01/06/2008 01/13/2008 - 01/20/2008 01/27/2008 - 02/03/2008 02/10/2008 - 02/17/2008 02/17/2008 - 02/24/2008 03/23/2008 - 03/30/2008 04/20/2008 - 04/27/2008 05/04/2008 - 05/11/2008 06/01/2008 - 06/08/2008 06/22/2008 - 06/29/2008 06/29/2008 - 07/06/2008 07/20/2008 - 07/27/2008 08/24/2008 - 08/31/2008 09/14/2008 - 09/21/2008 11/02/2008 - 11/09/2008 11/23/2008 - 11/30/2008 12/07/2008 - 12/14/2008 12/28/2008 - 01/04/2009 03/08/2009 - 03/15/2009 04/26/2009 - 05/03/2009 05/24/2009 - 05/31/2009 09/13/2009 - 09/20/2009 09/20/2009 - 09/27/2009 09/27/2009 - 10/04/2009 10/04/2009 - 10/11/2009 11/01/2009 - 11/08/2009 11/08/2009 - 11/15/2009 11/29/2009 - 12/06/2009 12/06/2009 - 12/13/2009 12/27/2009 - 01/03/2010 05/23/2010 - 05/30/2010 11/21/2010 - 11/28/2010 11/28/2010 - 12/05/2010 06/12/2011 - 06/19/2011 |